I Hate Interviews

As my husband almost immediately picked up as one of my quirks, I speak my mind for the most part. I've gotten better at thinking and then thinking again before saying something, but somethings slip by. I had my interview today at 2. I felt really confident and the two interviewees made me pretty comfortable. They were both easy going and easy to talk to. Yet, I struggled with a few questions. I went into it thinking, I don't have to have the perfect answer, I just need to be myself. However, I always leave those things feeling like I didn't say enough or I should have elaborated on a question more or that i didn't include a very important part of a question. Always those darn what ifs. Then I had to take a "test" - I should have expected this and I should have brushed up on stuff, but I didn't. I could kick myself. I felt positive when they did ask about my school schedule, but they hadn't see that test yet. I guess its good practice if nothing else...

On a really sad note, Des called me this morning to tell me RJ's dad was killed in a car accident this morning. I just can't believe it. I am numb. And I hate being so far away from them and not able to at least be there. I know they understand. Just really frustrated about it all. I am hoping I can make the funeral but am not sure with school. We will see based on what info I get from Des on everything. For now, I can only keep them in my thoughts.